Big wake-up call today.

Over the past few days, I've had increasing pain in my left middle knuckle. No problem, been through that before.

Last night, however, it started to swell, and the pain become almost unbearable. I could not keep a grip on the stretcher to lift patients, and carrying equipment was torture. Thank god for firefighters.

Already had an appointment at the doctor today for an unrelated follow up, and was told that it could be a traumatic injury (from what, I have no idea), but it looks more like some type of non-traumatic joint inflammation. Both hands show signs of swelling, though the pain is only in my left. Rheumatoid arthritis? Lupus? Some other disease of the connective system? Or just a one-time-only inflammation?

Anyway, it is terrifying. The thought of not being able to use my hands is inconceivable.

Back on the ball, Nate. Back on the ball.

Tomorrow I am getting our menu in order. I am cleaning house and getting rid of stuff. I am going to start cooking again, eating real *meals* not the thrown together snacking that we've been doing. And no more Easter candy. That stuff is addictive poison.